The Nerd Inside of Me

This Saturday, as I was curled up watching Mama Mia! at home, Garrett decided to sidle up to me and judge my choice of movie. I said something sassy as he took up too much room on the couch.

"Mm, you're so cool," he said in reply. And then: "Wait, no. You're not cool. You really are not cool."

He wasn't being mean; he was being honest, thinking out loud. Truth is, if I were describing myself to someone, I wouldn't use the word "cool". But, still. My feathers were ruffled.

"What do you mean?" I asked, offended. "I can be cool! I am cool!" I retracted inside of myself to the awkward 7th grader who vied to be cool more than anything. And then, luckily, I came out of it with a laugh. I am so not cool, and I'm totally fine with it. Here it is, ladies and gentlemen, straight from the horse's mouth: I am anything but cool.

If you know me, I'm sure you don't need an explanation on the matter, but just in case...

My favorite genre of music is folk.

I own all seasons of Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman on DVD.

My first love was an Appendix gelding named Jasper.

I have red hair. And freckles.

I watch the Anne of Green Gables series at least every 3 years.

Historical fiction novels are my life away from life.

Bagpipes make me cry instantaneously. A lot of things make me cry instantaneously.

My favorite movies are period pieces.

I talk to my dog. Regularly.

I frown upon those who use poor grammar.

I can't wait to be 30. 40 sounds even better. Don't even get me started on 65.

I'm more awkward than not.

I do not think that Dubstep qualifies as actual music.

Low-rise jeans? Psh. I pull up all of my pants to sit directly below my belly button.

Although he no longer shares my bed, I still keep Bamboo, my childhood Panda, on the top shelf in my closet.

I have a blog.

...and that's not even half of it.

Yup, I'm a little bit of a nerd. A girl who loves horses, acoustic music, and history. I talk to dogs, read too many books, and can cry at the drop of a hat.

I am not cool.

Sorry, 7th grade Audrey, if I disappointed you.

Actually, no; sorry that I'm not sorry. I tried to hide my nerdy self (like that's possible) for far too long when I was younger. Not anymore. I have embraced who I am, and continue to every day.

I've got a nerd flag, and I'm flying it high.