"Mm, you're so cool," he said in reply. And then: "Wait, no. You're not cool. You really are not cool."
He wasn't being mean; he was being honest, thinking out loud. Truth is, if I were describing myself to someone, I wouldn't use the word "cool". But, still. My feathers were ruffled.
"What do you mean?" I asked, offended. "I can be cool! I am cool!" I retracted inside of myself to the awkward 7th grader who vied to be cool more than anything. And then, luckily, I came out of it with a laugh. I am so not cool, and I'm totally fine with it. Here it is, ladies and gentlemen, straight from the horse's mouth: I am anything but cool.
If you know me, I'm sure you don't need an explanation on the matter, but just in case...
My favorite genre of music is folk.
I own all seasons of Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman on DVD.
My first love was an Appendix gelding named Jasper.
I have red hair. And freckles.
I watch the Anne of Green Gables series at least every 3 years.
Historical fiction novels are my life away from life.
Bagpipes make me cry instantaneously. A lot of things make me cry instantaneously.
My favorite movies are period pieces.
I talk to my dog. Regularly.
I frown upon those who use poor grammar.
I can't wait to be 30. 40 sounds even better. Don't even get me started on 65.
I'm more awkward than not.
I do not think that Dubstep qualifies as actual music.
Low-rise jeans? Psh. I pull up all of my pants to sit directly below my belly button.
Although he no longer shares my bed, I still keep Bamboo, my childhood Panda, on the top shelf in my closet.
I have a blog.
...and that's not even half of it.
Yup, I'm a little bit of a nerd. A girl who loves horses, acoustic music, and history. I talk to dogs, read too many books, and can cry at the drop of a hat.
I am not cool.
Sorry, 7th grade Audrey, if I disappointed you.
Actually, no; sorry that I'm not sorry. I tried to hide my nerdy self (like that's possible) for far too long when I was younger. Not anymore. I have embraced who I am, and continue to every day.
I've got a nerd flag, and I'm flying it high.